Like Jazzmark007 says the memories will never go away so take your time, enjoy each moment before, during and after. Once you have some practice you can get a little crazy and try different locations, positions or even a few props with someone special. Someone you’re comfortable with.
Giving up your v-card at the ranch can be a great thing since you’ll be with a lady that can guide you through positions, help you with your thrusting (trust me, it’s not like porn or masterbating) teach you a few tricks that women love and then relax once we’re finished.
Jazzmark007 are these health problems the kind a little TLC can help make better 😉