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I definitely feel like I will need help like yours to make it to find the girl to lose my virginity to. Right now I don’t feel as I know everything I need to know. Having expertise would definitely help me on this end. I need to know where to begin to prepare myself and prepare on what to do for a 1st time and what a first time would be like. I think it would only help.
Right now, I am like a caged lion waiting for the right person to unleash and uncage my inner being. I know I have a creative side of me, and I wonder what it would be like for once to actually love someone with it. I think I would to explore it and the world of sexuality that I’ve never had ever. I look to do that at some time. I would look to help to find it.
Thank you, Angel. I messaged you back too. I also asked a few more questions, and I just wanted to know some more things. I just want to be sure that this is right and Sheri’s will be what I need to go fix my virginity. I’m quite sure, but there’s a lot as a virgin I don’t know about.
I definitely appreciate you and your willingness to message me. It means a lot, and I will definitely keep messaging you back. Thanks, Angel.
Thank you, Angel. Hearing from one of the ladies definitely makes it a lot easier to weigh in on my mind. I am feeling like I do want to finally experience a woman in a special way. I mean, I’ve never had a single girl ever touch me before, so it would definitely be a great day for me. I do want to finally feel the touch of a woman, and the amore from a woman too. I think I can say safely that I would want to lose my virginity, but I also know I want to lose it in a way that’s a little more romantic. I always had pictured it being more like making love and everything. I just want it to be romantic and special my first time, not just about sex only. If there’s a way that I could basically have a date with one of the girls, I think that would be best.
I thank you, Angel, for taking the time to read this. It means a whole lot. To hear of girls who would be willing to take their time and share in my first time with me, it’s incredible to me. It puts my virgin mind at ease, for sure. Your post was so helpful.
I loved hearing from you. I definitely think it would be best to talk to you. I am, however, pretty far away from the ranch. If we could talk still, then that would be great. Once again, thank you. Your message meant a ton.
Yeah, I guess that is one of the things I dread most happening, even though I know it is destined to happen. I know that I will not be in a long-term relationship with her, but I know that I would remember her forever. I just fear that she will forget me and not ever think of me again. I do have a little bit of 2nd thoughts with this. I just wonder if I will mean anything special to her. Knowing that I probably won’t actually hurts me a lot. It’s like over in a flash, and you want to make something that lasts. I never hoped I’d lose my virginity in something so temporary, but more of a “true love” relationship. It stings for me, I guess, that she would never want me how I guess I might like her. It just stings.
By the way, since we are on the topic of girlfriend, what is this GFE? I am totally inexperienced to the whole escort thing, so what is the girlfriend experience? What’s all included in it? I am wondering because I am pretty interested in that. Is it like a date night or something? How long does it last? If I were going to lose my virginity, I would want to have it be a meaningful night, I guess. I still want it to be special and significant, not just a temporary thing. So is the Girlfriend experience that?
Also, quick question: I maybe should have mentioned this before at the top of the post, but I will anyway. I have never had sex before, right? However, I have hoped for something and someone special for a long time. I have basically invested myself into this moment and have waited for this, I guess. All that said, I wonder since the lady could potentially be my first that I might too attached and start falling for her. I know she would be an escort, and I would probably be just some face and name to her with money, but I know I’d never forget her. How could I forget my first time, especially with a really beautiful woman? I may develop feelings for her when it’s all said and done. I feel like I will fall for the girl I go with to forego my virginity. I don’t know. I know it is not probably a good idea to do so, because she will have probably not love me back either. I just think it may happen.
Could it happen to me? Is it common to have that happen? I need to know.
Yeah, I would definitely need a guide of some sort to teach me what to do. I am like clueless with this, so a girl like her would really help me. I do have a list of women I saw that I found very pretty, and I think I will try to speak to some. Then I guess I hope to find the one girl that’s I can be comfortable with. I guess it’s the best route. I just hope she’ll be okay with it.
Thank you so much for that. I will look to see what everybody else thinks about this. I might take a look over this. Maybe one girl will respond back to me. I know you can have more than 1 girl. I am only looking for one girl who will treat me like a girfriend, I guess I have a fantasy as to how it would go, and I hoping that it would go the way I would hope it to go. Do the girls tell you if they will kiss, though? I haven’t heard that at all. I don’t know if I could do it without having kissing. Will the girls tell you if they kiss?
Thanks, Flint for that advice. I would just like to know which ones would be best for someone like me. I’m pretty sure I have a thought of who would be best for me, but I don’t know who has those qualities. I am wondering that all the same. Any suggestions? Maybe some of the girls if they read this may know more. But until then, I guess I will message and see what I find.
Ok that’s great to know. Thank you so much. It is reassuring to hear this. I just have this nervous feeling being near women in general. I wonder if that will prevent anything from happening for me.
It helps, yes. You guys are helping with your advice. I am just wanting to hear from some of the girls input. I wonder if they would have the patience for me is all. I mean, this may not be an easy process for me. I’ve basically shied my sexuality into a corner, and I feel like I will be a nervous wreck because of this. I just hope they don’t feel like I’m pathetic or I’m a loser or something for being an adult virgin, really.
I think I also freak out because I am trained to think s_x as a bad thing, so I am afraid to do it. Anything sexual has been avoided in my life, and I feel like s_x has been deemed an evil in my mind. I know it’s not, but I have been frigid and gun-shy due to my thinking. Thus, I am nervous because I am inexperienced with women in general.
I don’t know what to do, and it’s not like I have had a lot of women wanting to touch me. I’ve basically been walled off from women, and no one has even come near me. It’s been nonexistent. I would like to actually have a girl come touch me and all that. I get nervous thinking about it, and I feel like shaking. I need to get past this, though. I’ve been held back for this.
Wrong vs right, what’s the right thing to do. It’s a little prudery vs prurient. I definitely feel that. I have that sexual side about me, I know it. I’m just afraid to show it and let it come alive. I’m afraid of doing something “wrong”, though I kind of want to lose my virginity. Though I want to finally fit in and become normal.
I think it’s safe to say that I’m ashamed to still be a virgin. That makes me super-nervous. It screams of loser.
I think my violent shakes are mostly part in due to my fear with not knowing what to do. I’m also afraid of how she will react. I try so hard to get people to like me. I want to please the woman so badly. I have a hard time accepting rejection from others, I guess. My internal mind gets to talking, and it gets to speaking quite loudly to me, where it says that I am doing something wrong, I think. I worry over my performance, and I hope that I am doing something right. I want so hard to win the hot girl that I get so scared to be around her and do something stupid, which I inevitably do anyway.
Yes, I am shaking because she is an attractive female. I end up looking so weird doing it, and I wonder what to do. I know I’m aroused, but I am afraid to be with a girl because I believe I will do something wrong like hurt or be accused of something like assaulting her. I was scared over that.
See, whenever I get around a female and she is close upon me, there is something that happens. I’ve never really been the type to attract girls, and no girl has ever really been interested in me. So, whenever I get close to one, something ‘arises’.
I got a kiss one time a while ago from this girl I used to kind of like, and when that happened, I had basically a major erection, and it was so easy to tell for her. She was more experienced than me, and she could tell by my face how embarrassed I was by the whole “erection”. I did not know what to do, except run away in such embarrassment. I was worried that she was going to laugh about it, but it just struck me.
It was so weird to me. With me being so inexperienced, I didn’t know what to do at that time. I thought she would be offended by it, because most girls usually are repulsed by the thought of me, I believe. Really, there hasn’t been a girl who has looked to touch me ever. I have been dateless, sexless, kissless, and basically never touched in my lifetime. So, I am basically programmed to rejection. I was afraid of that. With that girl, she was with somebody anyway. It made me nervous, because I didn’t know if she was going to like me or not. So, I retreated in fear, thinking rejection was going to happen. My erection basically made me even more nervous. In essence, I run from rejection to avoid pain and overwhelming heartache.
So, I often imagine what it would be like to have to tell a girl I like that I’m a virgin. I’ve heard most girls don’t even like virgins. It’s a stigma in society, no bones about it. I get so afraid to tell her that I’m a virgin because I’m afraid of how she will react. I wonder if she will laugh and then say she won’t want to be with me, which has happened before. I hope to have it go well, but with my little confidence, I wonder if that will ever happen. I get so scared to make a move, with a potential for rejection.
I don’t really know how to touch a woman, so I get afraid of really touching one. Where to put my hands and all that. Add in my super-ability to be awkward in any situation, and it is sure to go well. I am already having sexual thoughts, and now I have to act in a way I’m not comfortable, yeah, I get nervous. All these thoughts in my head just running so wild, and I can’t seem to contain. The worst get tagged to my virginity.
My virgin tag almost seems to be the albatross on my neck, and it seems to do more harm than good. It’s debilitating. I don’t want anybody to know. I feel like people would laugh at me for it. I hope to be a whole lot different than that. Oh, well. Maybe this would help me.
I also shake because most girls I fear are out of my league. I’ve never been called attractive, to be honest. Most girls that I know would never go for me. One of the things that I would liek to know is if they would find a skinny guy like me attractive. I doubt it, but who knows? I mean, I’m a nervous, shy, virgin, and a geek on top of it. Who would really want me?
That’s how I feel most days. I feel like I could never deserve or obtain girls in real life, especially those as fine as those on this site. They would just laugh at me and think I’m pathetic. I don’t think most girls would be attracted to me. I just put off this vibe, I think, that blocks women from going for me. I heard virgins do that. So, maybe going for a girl who I’d pay to be with would help me gain some confidence or something. Who knows if this would be invaluable for me.
All I really would like to hear is someone saying they love me, they value me, and they think I’m special and attractive. I want to hold her and give her nothing but good pleasure. I want her to tell me that she enjoys me. It’s what I want most. The sex is such a bonus, but the affirmation is such a key. I want that so much. I don’t want to go without that anymore. I don’t want to be some worthless virgin.
Will my inexperience show by my awkwardness? Will she disapprove of me because of it? Will she think I’m pathetic? I’m worried about that. I’m so shy it’s paralyzing for me. Pathetic, in my opinion. Can you blame me, though? Sex is like foreign to me. Honestly, kissing is foreign to me. It would be overwhelming.
What should I expect from sex, honestly? Quick question? I don’t even think I know what sex feels like. I’ve never held a woman, I’ve never touched a woman, I don’t even think I can count kissing either. I am so inexperienced that I don’t know what to expect. What am I expected to do? What is sex supposed to be like? Can somebody answer me that?
I still feel like because of my sheltered upbringing (though it wasn’t anti-sex), I feel scared to do something wrong. I can’t seem to get over thinking about it being bad or wrong of me to touch women. I don’t know. There is just some sort of psychological block that prevents me from even approaching women. I just think that something is wrong with me in terms of feeling some sort of wall in terms of just looking at women. Does anyone understand what I’m trying to say?
I just wonder if that is going to prevent me from ‘acting’ or what-have-you. Here comes the shaking again.
Yes, I think that would be great idea to think about. I am not really trying to go after a woman who I probably expect a rejection from. At least from that end, I can basically assume that girls would talk to me. I really think I am in need of seeing someone about this. It’s like I am emitting some sort of aura about me that somehow is easy to tell how I don’t have a girl I’m with. I hope it doesn’t come out that I’m a virgin, but it seems to probably be easy to tell, I guess. Oh, man. I can easily see how sheepishly weak & shy I am in my life, and it is sickening to me. I hope to not let this continue, for the life of me.
I know I have this passion and fire inside me that is just waiting to come out, and I know I have this internal person who wants to feel loved and to give some to another person, but I am so worried that I will not be able to know what to do and I will look stupid over it. I haven’t had a woman even touch me, let alone kiss me. I also haven’t had a woman even say she would have sex with me. It honestly scares me to think about it. I might freak out over a girl touching me. I’m not comfortable, i believe. I’m a little unsure I will be able to know what to do, but I do know I don’t want to be the only one who hasn’t done it. I hope to finally have that special something, that first kiss, that first night, that first time. I want to have it all. I don’t want to be the only one without ever having one and be the perpetual virgin, I think. I want to finally experience some passionate moments in life, giving kisses and some other romantic things through sexuality, like everyone else does. It’s like joining the club, I guess.
I do know, however, that I feel scared about it all. I am afraid of it all. I fear it won’t go too well. I fear messing up. I fear failure. What if I’m not any good? Will she say it to me? What will happen if I like suck? Those are the thoughts running in my mind every time I think about sex. Fear holds me back for sure. It might crush me inside if it does. I hope to be perfect, but I fear I won’t. I’m such a nerdy geek that I probably am not the type women want anyway. I’m not exactly a turn-on, if you know what I mean. I am so afraid, like fainting afraid. The wimpy nervous guy is coming again. I wonder if there is any way my fears can be assuaged. Maybe since she so experienced, she can help me do all this. Maybe she will help teach me what to do.
Yeah, I would have to say that I would love it if I could find a girl who would lay next to me and caress and kiss me all throughout like we were making love. It would also make it easier to find a girl who doesn’t make me scared to talk to her or something. I don’t even think I have moved to the bases yet, let alone have sex. I have one thing to thank, and I know it by name: shell of fear. I have lived in such a shell of fear, so afraid to make any moves at all, and I have lived in this isolation because of it. I don’t have anybody now because I am afraid to make a move. What’s worse is that even if I were to make a move at all, I don’t think I would even know how to do it. I basically live in my little box, and it kept me away from harm for so long. Now, though it has left me afraid to move, and I freeze up to do so.
All in all, now I am just a lonely guy. A lonely virgin guy. Kissless too. I haven’t even held hands with a girl before. I mean, I haven’t experienced all those things that everybody else is supposed to do. I am basically behind everyone else, and I am stuck there too. What girl would be interested in me? I mean, I can barely talk to one, and I shake, stammer, and embarrass myself in the process to where I want to hold my head low. I definitely am not the smooth operator, and I don’t have the ability to draw people magnetically. I speak in such a soft voice, with like no bass, and I am often afraid to speak up because I’m so passive. I hate it so much, but I am somehow stuck like this. I just turn timid too easily, and I can’t understand why. All that combined with a skinny physique (which women find so hot… NOT!) and you have the me virgin. It’s so shameful a life, I’m finding out.
I just feel trapped in myself, and it’s like its own prison being me some days. I look at everyone else, and I see people enjoying themselves and having a good time. Yet here am I, and I basically stick out as the sore thumb unable to fit in anywhere. I’m so soft and pathetic that I just can’t seem to deliver when it counts. Yup, there it is. I’m soft, I’m weak, I’m a weak man. I’m just not good enough or tough enough. My virginity tells me that.
I’m a wimp, I’m a wimp. I’m not a real man, and I know this. I need to become a real man. I’m so tired of being the one guy who always freezes and enters into the ‘friend zone’ with women. I’m tired of feeling like a loser. I’m tired of having no confidence. I am tired of being the guy who admires from afar and fantasizes about different women that he’s scared to talk to in real life. I’m tired of being rejected, I’m tired of feeling unworthy, and I’m tired of feeling like I’m less of a man. I’m tired of feeling so low-status. I am tired of being on the sidelines and never truly in the game. It’s no fun, and it’s a lonely existence.
It’s as if I am the shy guy in the corner, and I just go unnoticed through it all. Then when I do get noticed, I am the shy, awkward, loser guy. I bet most people can tell and read that I’m a virgin. It’s probably on my forehead or something. I am literally lagging behind, and it is displayed every single day, as I’m the odd man out. Maybe I need this so that I can finally become more confident and actually be cool for once. Who knows?
I sometimes wonder if I even matter after most days. Sometimes my thoughts secretly say I am wasting my time. It’s better to find out for once, right? Maybe being loved by somebody (even if it’s for only like 1 night of acceptance) is what I need most. Maybe it would give me the confidence I have been looking for, maybe it will make me fearless, maybe it will boost my ability up. At least I hope, because I don’t like being myself, the soft and timid shy virgin who just can’t interact with anyone (women definitely). I just want things to change for me, and actually have some semblance of a life, not a pathetic one in which I’m the loser all the time.
Thanks for he advice, but I don’t think I could relax at all. Even thinking about losing my virginity makes me nervous. I’ve begun shaking again, and the fainting.
Thank you for the responses. They were of a lot of help for sure. If I could hear from some of the ladies, then I am sure that would help too. Regardless, thank you so much for your responses. I just want to know one thing is all:
I am not sure if I am really the type to do a night with a girl at the ranch. I feel really uneasy and it’s like I don’t feel ready for it. Obviously, I fit the bill as the nervous and shy virgin. If you read my story, you would know that I’ve been that way for my whole life basically. I would like to break out my shell of fear, as well as my shell of second-guessing. It feels like I am living a half of a life because of it, and I have a sense of shame and insecurity over my virgin status. After all, I’ve never been really kissed or had anything truly romantic in my life at all. I know deep down I want to experience these things. So, I can see this having great benefits. However, I get a bit unsure about doing it this way, since it means compromising my faith and integrity. So, I ask this in sincerity: do you think that I should do this despite my apprehension? Would it be worth it for me? And how do I get past my fear with this?
